Before you try to escape your religious parents, you need to know you will lose a lot

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Some children are able to handle religious abuse, sometimes it is more mild than others, but if you are becoming suicidal then you need to get out, it is not good for children to remain suicidal throughout their whole childhood, it's bad for your brain even and might become a pattern in life. The plan to escape your religious parents and go into state care is really only for children who are in an insufferable condition.  Being raised by the state is not great and you are going to lose a lot. 

If you are following your monotheistic parents' religion, they can be very nice to you.  If you live at home and your parents have any sort of money, you will have your own room, your own car, will be able to select the clothes you buy, have access to your choice of cosmetics and beauty products, be able to ask for specific foods, and be able to be taken out to special places often.  None of this may be true if you are raised in state care.  Also, your parents may offer to pay for expensive colleges and make it so you don't have to work while going to school; you might have to settle for a less prestigious college and have to work in your early 20s if you go into a state institution. There is also to mention you will likely lose your family and community network.  

It also needs to be mentioned that no matter when you go a child can be abused.  You could go to state care and end up experiencing some form of abuse there... but it is different.  First of all, you are in a group setting with many adults who keep an eye on each other, so there is always someone you can report to. Secondly, if you do report abuse, the person who abused you will be fired and the abuse will stop... if you stay at home the abuse will never stop, ever, and your parents will never be punished. The state care system is not perfect, but it might be safer than your home. 

Your monotheistic parents have a lot to offer, just so long as you worship their evil god. You are being trapped with material comforts, you are being bought, and if this is crushing your soul then you need to consider sacrificing a life of ease for a chance at living a better childhood.  But you need to really consider this... if you sacrifice all your comforts and then regret it you will hate me.  Leaving your home is not for someone who is angry because their parents punished them for staying out too late, leaving home is for a child who has been religiously abused to the point that they are deeply suicidal. But let me tell you one thing, your monotheist parents don't care you are suicidal and will only view this as proof that you are in need of further indoctrination. 

First, I suggest going to school officials and discussing with them that you are being spiritually harmed to the point you want to take your own life.  Perhaps then you can get adults to reason with your parents and the harm can stop, or at least be diminished.  Only if that does not work, and the abuse intensifies, should you then consider working with your school to escape your house.  Remember, the school or police will likely discourage this, even if you are stating you will kill yourself, so you must be pushy and refuse to go home if necessary.  If no one will help you try to get to a hospital and tell them you are suicidal from abuse and need to get out of your house.  They will put you on the pediatric psyche unit until they can find you a proper place in the state system. 

Escaping your religious parents' home will not be fun or easy, you are going to have to make lots of sacrifices and you are going to lose a lot, not just possessions but also people.  If you feel you are able to fend for yourself without becoming suicidal, then do it, but if it is destroying you then you need to get out. You are going to be a child for 18 years, living in a suicidal state for that long could permanently destroy your life. It is not ok for children to live like that, you deserve better.